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Continue reading →: The Weeks Where Nothing Happens… But Everything Feels Heavy
I haven’t posted in about a week. Not because I’ve been busy… but because I haven’t. After my anniversary and Easter, I feel like I’ve slipped into a bit of a dark hole.I’ve been avoiding people.Barely eating.Sleeping at weird times.Just… existing more than living. And we’re coming up on two…
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Continue reading →: Grief Hangover
It’s Tuesday, and the grief hangover from Easter is hitting hard. Yesterday, I felt completely defeated. Just overwhelmed in every way. I went to bed hoping today would feel a little lighter… but it hasn’t Today has been heavy. I’ve cried. I’ve applied for jobs. I’ve tried to keep moving…
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Continue reading →: Weekend Recap: Easter, Grief, and the Quiet Moments In Between
Easter felt heavier this year. I visited Rodney, kept a quiet tradition, and tried to find small moments of peace in the middle of it all.
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Continue reading →: When Everything Hits at Once
Last night, I had a panic attack. It was late and I couldn’t sleep. My mind would not stop. I started thinking about May 1st and the fact that I’m going to lose my insurance. That also means losing access to the medication that has been helping me manage the…
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Continue reading →: The Night I Almost Went Back
It’s been officially two months since I was laid off from my job. Two months of applications, uncertainty, stress, and trying to figure out what my life is supposed to look like now. Somewhere in the middle of all of that, I decided to reopen my Etsy shop. That felt…
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Continue reading →: Quiet Days, Loud Thoughts
Today was one of those days where… nothing really happened. I didn’t go anywhere.I didn’t do anything exciting.I just kind of existed in it. And somehow, those are the days that feel the heaviest. I’ve been sitting with this feeling that people don’t show up for me the way I…
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Continue reading →: 15 Years, and a Day That Felt Heavy
Today would have been our 15th wedding anniversary. I wasn’t really sure what to do with the day.Nothing about it felt clear or right. I started the morning needing to get an affidavit signed and notarized for Rodney’s medical records. Of all days, it had to be today. Sitting there,…
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Continue reading →: Sitting With It All
Today was one of those quiet, heavy days. I cleaned around the house a little, nothing major, just enough to feel like I was doing something. But even in the middle of that, I could feel everything sitting just under the surface. My anniversary is in three days.I don’t think…
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Continue reading →: Bittersweet Beginnings
Saturday Today I woke up with a mission. A few weeks ago, I decided to sign up for First Fridays in Kansas City. It’s in the Crossroads District and it’s basically a space for artists to showcase and sell their work. For me, that’s earrings, bookmarks, keychains… but mostly earrings.…
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Continue reading →: Grief, Coffee, and Carrying On…
Friday I woke up feeling a lot better physically, which was a relief. But emotionally… it was a different story. It’s Friday, and next week on April 1st would have been mine and Rodney’s 15th anniversary. That’s been sitting heavy on my heart as I head into the weekend. I…
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