JessVsGrief

Today was one of those days where… nothing really happened.

I didn’t go anywhere.
I didn’t do anything exciting.
I just kind of existed in it.

And somehow, those are the days that feel the heaviest.

I’ve been sitting with this feeling that people don’t show up for me the way I thought they would. Not just today, but over the last six months. And I think what hurts the most is that it doesn’t even surprise me anymore.

It’s like I’ve slowly watched the silence become normal.

No check-ins.
No “how are you really doing?”
No showing up in the ways I once believed people would.

And today it just… sat heavy.

I did apply to a couple of jobs, so I guess that’s something. A small step forward, even if it doesn’t feel like much right now. Life doesn’t stop, even when you feel stuck in it.

I don’t really have a lesson or a positive spin to tie this up with today.

Just this:

Some days are quiet on the outside
but really loud in your head.

And today was one of those days.