JessVsGrief

Friday

I woke up feeling a lot better physically, which was a relief. But emotionally… it was a different story.

It’s Friday, and next week on April 1st would have been mine and Rodney’s 15th anniversary. That’s been sitting heavy on my heart as I head into the weekend.

I had therapy at 3:00, and of course… as soon as I walked in, I spilled my $9 Dutch Bros drink all over the floor. Completely wiped out. I just stood there like, really? Because that’s my little treat. My “I made it through the week” or “therapy day” coffee. So yeah, I was very bummed.

Therapy itself was okay. Just a lot of emotions. The kind that sit with you for a while after.

After that, I went to my nephew’s birthday celebration. And it was nice to be there, but also really hard. It felt lonely without Rodney… and without my dad. Just one of those moments where you really feel the absence and it hits you that they’re not here to celebrate with us anymore. And that just… sucks.

On the way home, I went back to the coffee shop and got another drink. Because honestly, why not treat yourself after a day like that.

Then I went home, relaxed, and just let the day be over. It was a long one.