JessVsGrief

It’s Monday.

I woke up feeling really defeated today.

It’s been 22 months without Rodney… and we’re coming up on two months since I was laid off.

I think it’s all just hitting me at once.

I feel emotionally exhausted.
Mentally exhausted.
Just tired in a way that sleep doesn’t fix.

I am trying.

I’m applying.
I’m networking.
I’m working with Missouri unemployment and trying to figure out other ways to find work.

But it’s stressful.
Like… really stressful.

And it’s lonely.

Because my support is gone.
Rodney is gone.

And I’m just trying to figure out how to do all of this without him.

Some days are okay.

But today is just really, really hard.