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Happy St. Patrick’s Day 💚

This is my second St. Patrick’s Day without Rodney.

Some years we would go out to Westport for the parade. Other years we would just stay home. But no matter what we did, we always found a way to make the day feel a little more special than just another day. That’s something I’ve really been thinking about today.

After Rodney passed away, I started a new tradition. For every holiday, I buy him a card. I write him a short note wishing him a happy holiday and share a little bit about what’s going on in my life at that moment.

Today, I took his St. Patrick’s Day card to the cemetery.
I read it to him, sat there for a few minutes, and just let myself be there with him. It was only 20 degrees outside, so I didn’t stay long, but it still felt important. It always does.

For the rest of today, I don’t have big plans. I’m just taking it slow. Letting myself relax. Remembering the good times. Missing him. Loving him.

And being grateful for the memories we made, even on simple days like this.
I’m learning that missing him is just another way of loving him.